Basically, I was just ranting about school. I'm on school break now for 6 weeks and I'm really relieved! I'm ready for a break at last, to be honest, the last few weeks of school through one thing and another have been rather farcial. We were told we had to return to school after our exams were complete, as because in their own words, there wouldn't be enough time to fit all the work in if we started in September. Guess what? The only thing we've learnt about is what we'll be doing.....in September.
To be honest, I have been given some books to read over the summer for literature, Dracula (awful), Doctor Faustus (just plain weird) and The Bloody Chamber (written by a feminist. Urgh) I'm actually enjoying Lit this time on the bits we have read of Dracula and Faustus and the essays we've done so far for them I've been getting really good marks on them. I was struggling with Lit last year, but now, something so far has just seemed to click with me (touch wood) and I'm contributing more to class discussions too. I'm still the only boy in the group though, I mean, I'd prefer it if I was with some of my bromies.
We've started Uni applications now too. I'm still not totally convinced it's for me. From the things I've heard from my sister (who goes to the Uni I want to go to), I'm wondering if it's really worth it. I'm still very much determined to become an F1 journo, but you see how many people are coming out of Uni with degrees and unable to find work and with loads of debt....I'm not so sure it's worth it. I'm very glad the Government has dropped the idea of a Graduate's tax because if that had gone through, I think I'd be sitting here 75% sure that Uni wasn't for me. I'm just going along with the form just incase I do infact decide to go to Uni. But for sure, I don't think Uni is all rainbows and bunnies like school tries to make you think it is.
If there's one thing tempting about Uni though, is getting away from people within school. I'm ready for a change now. I've been talking to a few people I'm friends with and they've suprised me with the fact that they've said they'll be sad to go. I'll be happy, I certainly don't want to be spending my entire life there, I've lost 14-15 years of my life to school already! Of course there's been some good times and some real laughs, but there's been some regrets and mistakes I've made too. But who doesn't have regrets? Certainly maybe at times things would have been a lot more fun had I gone a different way to the way I did go, but I guess in a way it's like betting all your life's savings on red and it coming out black at a casino. Hindsight and retrospect are wonderful things after all.
As you've probably seen, I know I won't be going to the leaver's prom about this time next year, as we've already booked tickets for the '11 British Grand Prix. It was a bit of a suprise to hear that my dad had booked it so early, but I'm delighted. For sure I'm not at all disappointed that I'll probably miss the prom because I can honestly say going to the '09 and '10 GPs have been two of the best experiences of my life. Maybe some of my friends will think less of me for not attending the prom. Perhaps some people I messed up were choosing to make up to me at that point, but I can't continue my life having the same regrets. One of my favourite sayings is "Life is like a game of cards. You've got to do the best with what you've been delt." Besides, I'd much rather be at Silverstone having THE TIME OF MY LIFE rather than spending a load of cash on a tux that I'd probably only wear that once. The idea of a prom just doesn't appeal to me at all, all the smart dress, the thing about the posh food, getting a date or whatever....ahh, I don't need that hassle. That's not my idea of fun. If you could turn up to a prom in casual dress, short sleve t-shirt with shorts, that'd be great, as it is, you can't do that. Anyway, what better way to celebrate finishing school and my A levels than getting to another Grand Prix.
I only really plan to wear a suit at weddings and funerals, and hopefully in the case of the latter, there won't be too many of those.
I guess Uni is like your school life condensed into 2-3 years. You start again with new people, you make new friends, have new adventures and new experiences and study something different too.
I've got a lot of fun stuff coming up over this summer break. A few weeks away, some weekends away too, some races coming up, spending time with family and friends, so yeah. I'm happy and relaxed currently, till the second week in September at least!
Overall, life is for the living, and that's what I intend to do. Live it.